i'm sure you were worried

what may have befallen me since the last gloomy report. but i am still here. however, it is not my intent to post anything positive here, so don't interpret my continued existence as a sign of optimism, now or in the future.

today's roll: stuffed ears, headache and some vertigo (i KNOW, the earth is spinning a 1,000 miles per hour and moving through space at some mind boggling speed, both in orbit and as part of galactic rotation, it's a wonder YOU'RE not dizzy, too).

what's up with my knees? is it dehydration? side effects of my statin?

and i'm puffed up like the hindenberg.

carry on, i remain

gs

tis the season

the cold/flu season. groggy, stuffy, nauseated, probably feverish, definitely delerious (i blame others). this was foretold on sunday, before you knew me. plus dry skin, and a hang nail or two, obviously related. and i have something in my eye.

i am

gs

oh! my aching ...

in an effort to learn more about myself, to learn to laugh at myself and more probably, to pick at the scab of myself, i intend to start, end or pause my day to inventory how i am feeling. not in my head, unless it aches, but my physical body. perhaps this will reveal cycles, rhythms and harmonies heretofore unrecognised. perhaps by focussing on what's wrong, by getting it out and out of the way, perspective might be achieved. possibly i just like complaining. i hope this will be harder than i think it will be.

today, wednesday, 10/07/09, having slept ill, i grunted awake to find 2 mosquito bites, one on face, one on forearm. possible glimmerings of plantar fasciitis in my right heel, from stumbling down the stairs in sock feet. a bit dispeptic from 2 cocktails and wine with dinner the previous evening.

gs